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i should cut for whining, but.

I'm supposed to be writing this essay that is due tomorrow. It has to be 4000 words. I have written 1200 and not researched enough. And can't pay attention. After it is finished I have to write another that is due Monday, but is Melissa's birthday Sunday so I have to finish it by Saturday. At some point I have to clean disgusting house too as mother coming home from Taiwan. Why, then, am I watching angsty akame vids and not doing homework?

I made pasta for dinner and put too much garlic in it and now I have a garlic headache. I know that sounds dumb but whenever I eat too much garlic I get a headache. Perhaps I am allergic. Perhaps I should not put two cloves of garlic in something that is only intended to serve one.

My recent LJ entries should serve to show everybody why I do not usually post too often. Nothing happens in my life. At the moment I've been really angsty. Post thesis depression and the strain of having to do these other essays. Which should really be easy essays, if I could just make myself focus.

I love songvids. I really do. That second one is probably one of my favourite songvids of all time, I watch it whenever I'm annoyed and it makes me briefly not annoyed. NINJA NINJA.

I've been thinking about writing a lot lately. Last year I started this novel for a class that I'd really kind of like to finish. I wonder how much of my desire to write is just the fact that I don't want to write academic shit though. I'm worried I'll lose the urge the second uni is over.

I've been getting retardedly angry over little things this week. I feel crotchety and uncomfortable like a grumpy old man. When I say 'little things', I mean things that aren't even things. Today I fumed for like fifteen minutes because some of the tables were different at QV, but not all of them. And I couldn't figure out why. WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS???? I thought to myself. The other thing that drew my ire was FIFTEEN FUCKING GIRLS IN FUCKING DRESSES AND HATS BUYING TICKETS AT THE MACHINE AT MY STATION THIS MORNING, ON THEIR WAY TO OAKS. I HAD TO STAND IN LINE BEHIND THEM WAITING TO USE THE MACHINE. THEY KEPT COMPLAINING ABOUT BEING COLD, I WAS LIKE, NO SHIT, WEARING A BOOB TUBE DRESS WHEN IT IS STILL PRACTICALLY WINTER OUTSIDE.

This should show you how calm and balanced I have been lately.

I uploaded an amazing song for everybody. KAT-TUN - ONE ON ONE. jpop warning. and asian rap warning, lol. This song makes me so retardedly happy. I'm so impressed by beatboxers because I don't understand how they do it. Especially Nakamaru. It's this mysterious skill he has and I don't get how he came by it. HOW DID HE LEARN SUCH A MARVEL.

Whenever I watch jpop clips I think about grumpy old Marxist academics like Theodor Adorno and think about how much it would distress them. I think that makes me love it more.

My house is literally disgusting right now. I said to Melissa a couple weeks ago that if I had kids, right now they'd be taken away from me. She thought I was joking, but I wasn't. It's gotten so much worse since then too. The other day I found clothing I literally forgot I owned because I unearthed it from behind my hamper.

I just watched this for the first time in a while. I love Mike. Why would anyone make him angsty. T_T. He still looks like Kate Moennig.

At the rate I'm working, I will clearly be up all night doing homework. YAYFACE.

Does anybody have any tv or movie recs for when I finally finish uni? I literally plan not to leave the house except for brief relocations to friend's houses where I will continue sitting on my ass watching tv.

This is the whiniest post ever, it's killing me. I can't wait until uni is over and I go back to being sane again. Apparently the people around me have also been getting progressively more insane and I haven't even noticed because I NEVER SEE ANYBODY.

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shows to dl or shows to watch on the tv?

You obviously have never seen Australian tv. Shows to DL.

lies. i've totally seen neighbours.

i recommend nip/tuck and dexter. sam will back me up.

nip/tuck is on my list! My mother was watching it a while ago, my rage when I would come home from studying and find her on the couch watching episode after episode. It was like she'd stolen my life.

sdfhgsdfh i got my mom hooked on vmars last summer. she was all, "i can't believe it was aaron. man. i totally thought it was duncan," for, like, weeks. when the s2 dvds come out i'm going to make her buy them for me.

dexter is in the same vein as nip/tuck imo. it's insane and hilarious and about bad, bad people you can't help to love. the main character, dexter (david from six feet under) is a csi during the day and a serial killer at night. a serial killer with standards. darla from buffy and angel is his nice girlfriend.

sldkfj my entire family has seen more than their fair share of VM after this year, I think they're all thoroughly sick of it. I rewatched the entire first season last November while my dad was on holiday, he kept loitering around pretending not to watch it and then getting upset when I watched eps while he wasn't around.

I've heard a lot about Dexter. I didn't know Julie Benz was in it though.

also neighbours is an affront to humanity

what was the show about the cops? water-something.

Water Rats. They weren't just cops, they were HARBOUR COPS, basically an excuse to show Sydney Harbour Bridge in the background in every scene. Australia loves retarded cop shows. There's this one set in rural Victoria called Blue Heelers. I hate it so much. Everyone in it is so boring and Australian.

i love stupid cop shows. it's insane. when i lived in london i used to watch the bill and it was seriously awful, but i watched it every day. over the summer all i ever watch on tv is cartoons and law and order. i was talking to someone the other day whose girlfriend is a forensics person for a crime lab and i was like, YOU HAVE THE BEST GIRLFRIEND ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH, and i don't know anything about her. i'm trying to think if there are any canadian cop shows. there's da vinci's inquest, but it's like a poor man's csi.

also, i have class in 5 hours. i hate myself.

I find them really boring until I'm in the mood, when I love them. I usually enjoy CSI though because science is like magic to me.

five hours D: i understand. my essay is due in less than 24 alkjd.

BLUE HEELERS MADE MY MUM SO ANGRY. WHEN IT ENDED I THOUGHT SHE WAS GOING TO HAVE A FIT OF JOY. THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES HER ANGRIER IS THIS IS YOUR LIFE.

Have you seen Weeds?

Have you seen Mysterious Skin?

Have you seen Saved by the Bell: Wedding in Vegas?

oh, i second weeds. amazing show.

I haven't seen Weeds. I've seen Mysterious Skin, but not since it was at the movies. I'm not sure if I want to see it again though, lol

. So disturbing yet incredible. I don't know if I've seen Saved by the Bell: Wedding in Vegas. Probably not unless it was around when I was nine.

Mysterious Skin was so good, but it's one of those movies you feel kind of weird being like, "It was awesome!" about. Did you see Brick? I didn't enjoy it equally but it was still good. Everything Joseph Gordon Levitt does is so good. [-o< Except maybe Angels in the Outfield. You could watch that.

Yeah, exactly. I recced it to some people and was like ... before I did it alksdj. It's so good though.

I watched Brick as part of thesis research. I thought it was good but I thought that they kind of suppressed the teenageness of it too much. Too much noir and not enough teen. Because they didn't really use the teen part that effectively it felt kind of like a gimmick to get audiences. I felt like the whole thing could have been happening to anybody.

I have seen Angels in the Outfield. Oh films of our youth.

Have you seen Au revoir les enfants?

No, not that I can recall. Good? It looks super depressing.

I want to see Road to Guantanamo but I don't know if I can handle it emotionally right now.

It's depressing, but I really liked it. Sometimes I think that something just has to depress me for me to like it.

I haven't seen that.

It's new Michael Winterbottom movie based on those British citizens that got detained at Guantanamo.

I usually like depressing things best too. What is wrong with us.

Watch Weeds! It's very funny.

It took me about six times to get that reply to go through.

Watch Supernatural with me. I've got the whole season and too scared to watch. Mum is bringing dvd player so we can watch dvds at my place now :D! Oh and, Heroes.

I dunno if I can be bothered with Supernatural. All the American shows have such long seasons, it seems like such a commitment laksjd. I will definitely watch Heroes. I look forward to watching dvds at your place. Mum just called. I whined to her.

i don't think you'd like supernatural at all. also you'd constantly complain about it lolol

dsfkjlksdfj what I've seen of it is okay, but not in a compulsive way. It's really pretty though.

SO SCARY GOOD GOD. I PLAN TO BINGE ON IT SO I'M GOING TO BE ALL JITTERY WHEN YOU SEE ME ON SUNDAY.

Have you tried cutting the little green shoots out of the middle of the garlic? Apparently most people can't tolerate them.

/random ~~inane~~ driveby

Reaaaaaaaaally. I'll have to try that next time. I always forget that it makes me feel like shit and use heaps of it, and then feel like shit.

I CAN'T BELIEVE THE BEATBOXING IS REAL. IT'S SO AMAZING. IT HAS TO BE FAKE.

I know. Whenever he does it I just stare. Such an awesome yet ultimately useless skill. Unless you happen to be in a Japanese boy band or a gangster rapper.

I'd really love him for it if I hadn't already become enamored with Koki.

Nakamaru used to be my least favourite until I started actually paying attention to him and now Junno is my least favourite. Because he's freaking boring. I love Koki so much. He's my favourite jpop star that isn't Kame or Jin. Or Yamapi. Or Ryo. I realise that's a pretty long list but it's almost four am and I've loved them longest. God talking about jpop is embarrassing sometimes. If someone made a tv show starring those five I don't think I'd be able to watch it because like, after that it'd all be downhill from there.

Have you seen this clip, in which Koki sews for everybody and performs First Aid?

I hate Junno. He's so tall and he shouts too much. fhgds this seems somewhat unfair of me. Oh, ps; the boy knows knows Ryo. There's a picture of them together with p and jin and shirota and jin's bro, and it looks like Ryo has recently broken all of his fingers with his hands wrapped in bandages. shirota and p also have matching hair streaks.

me: look at you boys. I thought there was no halloween in japan.
him: hn.

RYO. I'd say more but I'm vaguely afraid China is watching us.

HAVE YOU SENE THIS. if it's true, i want to die this way, laughing.

jfhds take it to ym, buddy.

"Yeah, I didn't write it but I'm refusing to read it based off your feedback alone. Some friends put it up to horrify me. I AM WITH YOU ON THEM BEING FRIENDSHIPPY :( Why do they want to destroy such purity. "

Hey. D: I really wanted to reply to your comment but then the post was actually deleted and now. Augh.

I mean that fic was just really twisted, I'm not sure if it was meant to be just a funny fic because I took it really weirdly, I mean I just react to things really strangely.
And it really kind of freaked me out so much that I just wrote my stupid comments being in a state of O_Oness and I'm really regretting it now because the author probably took it as a negative thing and oh my god what if it was because of me that s/he deleted the post in the first place?!??!?!?
I really think I screwed up really really bad and I'm just all frantic.. X_X
It just makes me feel even worse that it made you not want to read it I mean I guess it's also good if you would have been scarred forever or something but right now I'm mainly just so guilty about it anyway?

That's all I have to say, sorry for spamming your LJ when you probably couldn't care less and it's really the author who needs to hear this from me, right? X_X Except I don't know who it is. >_>...

It was me that deleted it, don't worry. Your comments weren't offensive at all. A couple of friends who have my password wrote the fic and posted it under my name as a joke. The fic was supposed to be bizarre enough that I would be embarrassed about people thinking I wrote it, so you actually responded exactly the way you were supposed to

. I'm sorry you got caught up in what was more or less just an elaborate practical joke on me. Please dont feel guilty.

Ninja of the nighhhhhhhhhhht

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i'm beyond fear.

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awesome