fitz, we all feel like this when we make these steps toward growing up. it's natural to feel weighed down by possessions, to feel like with each acquisition, a bit of your soul is lost, but that isn't how it really is. your future is what you make of it, and your soul will always be there, no matter what you end up doing or owning. i know you feel lost right now, but it will pass. you'll be all right.